Please make it stop
The dream I had last night makes the dream I had on Thursday night look like nothing.
My dream last night was a total and complete nightmare - I was losing my baby, the same way I did in March. Only this time Adam wasn't there with me, and I didn't even have my doctor (or any doctor) to help me go through labor and delivery.
Then, after it was all over, I was facing the same scenario - the cards, flowers, list of meals being brought over, facing shock and disbelief. And then I found Adam and started crying and couldn't stop.
I woke up really uncertain as to whether I was still pregnant or not.
Dear God, will I be facing 9 months of these torturous dreams?
Or, worse - less than 9 months, if the nightmares will come true? Sometimes the fear is paralyzing.


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